My 9th letter to you....
It's a new month... 1 month plus since you left...
Suddenly missed your presence again...
Just came home from a movie.. Total Recall.. It's a great show... Believe this is something that you will enjoy watching.... There were a few moments in the movie where I had actually hoped that you were sitting beside me like you used to...
Wished that I can re-modify my memory like that main character in the movie.... =(
Been playing alot with my polaroid camera.. Been reminding myself that my life now is like those instax film.... I only take a shot once... I cannot edit to make it perfect... Nor can I delete it just because it's not perfect...
I took a leap of faith when I decided to be with you.... I cannot change the past to make it better cause you wouldn't let me... I cannot delete our times together because I still love you...
I am living my life so carefully now.. Careful not to remember you.. Careful not to text you...Careful not to check your facebook profile... Careful not to show everyone at work how sad I am... Careful to constantly keeping a smile on my face...Careful not to fall in love again...
It just hurts so much... Love... I don't think I can trust this 4-letter word from anyone again... Sigh...
Missing you so much.. & Love you... Always...
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